I am sorry to say that my mind has been elsewhere. I have fallen away from keeping my posts active, and there are other areas that I have neglected as well.
You would think that something that is important to you would keep you active. Unfortunately for me that is not the case.
I believe taking time to fix where you have fallen away is a must. Don’t give up your desires. Keep working on it. Try to find ideas to do things that will help. I just started a bullet journal to help me keep my mindset. Do something you love by incorporating it into your kink.
Remember there are people who will help you. Talk to others in the lifestyle. It really does help.