I had my first real, total experience with a sub drop. I was being punished and I was not cooperating. It only made my punishment worse and then I entered the drop. I didn’t care if Master hit me anymore and I hardly flinched.  Then, I started to cry. And I cried and cried. Along came the hysterics and hyperventilating that lasted into the night. Master cared for me, but I couldn’t stop. I did sleep, but only to wake startled, and jumping in the night. I even had a nightmare that I did my wrong doing again. Master convinced me that it was a dream. It was not a good feeling at all. I don’t want to go into drop again.

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